Just Another Dayand yet again i can not fall asleep. the worst part about it is. i want to go to bed. im dead tired havnt slet much in forever and my bodie is ahving trouble.
today wasnt the best of a day either.
i learnt that my mom is yet sick again and that she was just in court today.
see last week her ex roomate tryed to kill my mother so she was in the hospital for a few days and she got out of ti somehow. even though she should of stayed longer but whatever.
So my mom was getting an order against the bitch. so i guess its good. shes also supost to eb going to the hospital again sson for her test. because i think ti was 2 months ago. they found a lump in her liver. and it might eb cancer.
im preety sure it cancer sence my mom almsot died from cancer in 2001.
doctors also said shes probobly gonna get cancer again anyway.
My dad is really stressing me out too.
hes always not home latly.stays out late. My dad is really fucking old to and really sick. the doctors told me hes dieing so im scared for that shit.
sence my parents are divorced and my dad, his family is just a bunch of jerks. i know im gonna be the one finding him. but iv come to terms with it and im not scared of it.
i think.
iv been so stressed out too.
i havnt been taking my medication even though i should.
i think its why iv been less paiteient latly and shit. but i dont know i keep on forgettign to take them and usaly when i do. i take to many.
im also in a fight with my ex.friend and what hruts the msot is.
im so annoied fo ehr and im preety sure we will never be friends again or as close. but i still care about her.
im just tired of ehr ebing a fake.
i dont know why i started this now. the whole fight. latly iv been so suiciidal. and im going back to old habits.
im really hating it.
well i guess im done.
i dont know why i wrote this knowing anyone could read it but whatever.
im sorry if i should like im complainging i jsut needed to write it out.
its like killing me inside.
ok im out
short but sweet
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i didnt think anyone else went through what you go through the whole slipping back into old routines
"im so annoied fo ehr and im preety sure we will never be friends again or as close. but i still care about her.
im just tired of ehr ebing a fake.
i dont know why i started this now. the whole fight. latly iv been so suiciidal. and im going back to old habits.
im really hating it."
i went through this a few years back with someone i thought would be my friend forever, that was two years ago we still arent talking and thats only because she doesnt want to sort things out.
"i dont know why i wrote this knowing anyone could read it but whatever.
im sorry if i should like im complainging i jsut needed to write it out."
awhile ago i wrote exactly the same thing in my journal and the end of and entry, sometimes u just have to write it out tell someone, any one even if u dont know them
otherwise it eats you from the inside.
"its like killing me inside.
ok im out"
I thought i was the only one who felt that they were dying inside because of things that have happened in their lifetime,
i cant believe i randomly found your journal on deviantart, i didn't realise that there could actually be other people out their who have felt the same as me
thanks
for being like me
from random person
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I really do like it.
Exspecalie the she crys on it.
so true.
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